"The only true gift is a portion of yourself."
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Ralph Waldo Emerson
When I think about this quote, the first thought in my mind is Christ giving himself up for me. He did not just give a portion, he gave all he had. I have to then think about my own self. Do I give myself to others? Of course a quick response is well yes I do. I give all my time to my family and I take time for my friends. I serve at church and offer help to those I can. But as I really reflect, I find myself thinking that is really not true. Giving of me is not just about time or service, it also has to do with the attitude in which I do it.
Bobby loves to eat dinner early and I have found I enjoy it as well. I would have never considered myself a cook until two years ago when I had to start cooking to save money. I plan out each month of meals and really enjoy my time in the kitchen. I enjoy trying new things and really like it when it gets good reviews. But some of that is really selfish. My ego needs to be told I did something good. I pride myself on having dinner on the table when Bobby comes home, because I know he appreciates it, but it also helps our evenings flow better. There is one thing I have found though, when I really take time and enjoy preparing the meal and its not just out of "have to attitude" the meal tastes better. It also brings me joy to serve my family in this way. A preference of Bobby's has become a joy in my life.
Too many times we serve or give money knowing in the back of our minds, God will reward us. There is a radio station here in Houston, that every year during their giving campaign, says "give and God will give to you" Sometimes they have even gone so far as to say "give $20 and you will happen to find $40 you didn't know about" This really angers me, because we are not called to give in order to get something in return. This is not the attitude God calls us to have. He tells us to serve as I have served you. When we give it needs to be out of joy, compassion and the desire to let others see Christ in us.
I think I can do a better job of serving my family and friends.