My Plans

I am learning, ever so slowly, that I am NOT in control.  I have always needed to be in control and and fought most of my 30 years to keep that control.  I have always wanted to be a few minutes early everywhere so I could control my timing, or be the leader or any group I am in, to control what happened.  Again Control has ruled my life.  The past few years I have been hit with anti-lock brakes, my seat belt has tightened and I have been flung back into my seat.  I also have heard a voice saying, "Move over! You are in my seat!"  Of course, God, has been trying to get my attention.  So many time in the past few years, one verse has completely captured my heart. Jeremiah 29:11-12   Most people know verse 11 but I rarely hear it followed by verse 12.  "11 For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace, and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome. 12 Then you will call upon Me, and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear and heed you."   What amazing peace this gives me.  I have fought for control for all my life and here God just so plainly states, Pray to me and I will hear and heed you.  Heed means -to give attention to-  God will give me His attention!!   The verses then go on to say all the little things that happen, have been on purpose.
To say the least just having children has made me lose some control!  But almost 2 years ago, God pulled me up from a career, in ministry, and placed me at home with my boys.  At first I was upset, since it was not MY decision to leave, even though I had been wanting to for over a year. But His plans are so precious.  I love how when I think I am in full control, He reminds me how small I really am. 
One fight I have never had control over is my weight and eating habits.  I guess that's the one area I would always "give" God to control and felt like He never did.  After I had Ryan 17 months ago, my body has not rebounded.  I realized I never wanted to take pictures with my boys and I had a VERY limited wardrobe, which contained all black shirts.  I never wanted to buy larger clothes.  A few weeks ago I wrote down a prayer for my health.  I literally felt God opening His arms and saying finally.  I feel as if He wanted me to take control of my body, my temple, and make it a better place for his Holy Spirit to reside.  In that moment, I called the Dr and the change has started.  I now eat because my body needs it, not because my emotions do!
So I daily check people's blog's and finally decided its an amazing way to keep amazing accounts of our family!
I will keep updating my progress as well as on Rob and Ryan!