April 17, 2012 started as a normal beautiful cool April morning. The boys and I were in the car headed to their MDO/Preschool. It is a good 25 min drive for us so we have plenty of time to talk, and with my precious Rob, that is a good thing. On this particular day, God had planned ahead and gave me a bit more patience than normal, knowing what was in store for me. He knew in the midst of Rob's questions my life would change. Typically I can handle 10 minutes of Rob's never ending questions and conversations. If you happen to use a "big word" than, you have opened yourself up for more questions, demand for knowledge and understanding. On this morning I messed up and used the word typically. So there I was driving, trying to describe to a 5 year old what typically meant. Now as most parents know, the moment they ask you to explain a word you go blank. After I answered what I could, I thought maybe we are done for the day, but God had a different plan.
Rob then wanted to know how Jesus could live in our hearts, when we just celebrated Jesus' return to heaven. In the same breath asked if Jesus and God were the same or different people? So I talked about Jesus being God's son, so He was part of God. (I was really not prepared to begin a conversation on the Trinity.) He was satisfied with that answered when we talked about God giving Mary baby Jesus and that God wanted His son to walk on the earth and live with people. Then of course, He had to die for our sins so He could be raised from His dead body to live in Heaven with God again. When we got to this point in the discussion, he asked again, "How does He live in our hearts?" With that I being talking about salvation and the way we get to go to heaven, is by telling Jesus thank you for dying for our sins and asking Him to come and live in our hearts. I said you just say those things to Jesus in a prayer and He will fill your heart and make a place for you in Heaven.
That is the moment my life changed. He very mater-of-factly said "I am ready to do that, mommy. I am ready to ask Jesus in my heart" At this point I am in tears, trying to explain to Rob that I am so happy for him. Had we not been going to church I would have stopped and prayed right there with him, but in that moment I thought it would be something we could share with others. I told him when we got to church we could go into Pastor Bill's office and pray together. We walked into the church and I was fighting back tears the whole way knowing my little man, was making the best decision of his life. Rob walked into the office and told Pastor Bill he was ready to ask Jesus into his heart. Bill looked at me and realized I was a complete mess, but also a very proud momma. So he talked with him for a minute and then we all held hands. Rob closed his eyes and with an excited and steady voice asked Jesus to live in his heart. I don't remember what Pastor Bill said after that, but I will never forget the look on Rob's face after he said Amen. I saw the face of Christ in my little man.
He was so proud to share his news with his music teacher, Miss Melissa. The others who heard could not help but fight back tears to hear how this young man had just changed his life. In the Methodist church, they do not come forward in front of the church to accept Christ. We believe a simple prayer is all you need. I know he will have other life changing spiritual moments, but I may never get to experience those in person. My mom and I actually had a conversation less than a week ago and she said Rob is ready to ask Christ in his heart. This has been a great day.
I feel so inadequate as a mom sometimes. Rob challenges me on a daily basis. He is smarter than me and has such a desire to learn. I am so blessed that God is one of those things he craves to know more about. I am confident in one thing, I will get to spend eternity in Heaven with my son!
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